I keep finding myself stifled by the company of others and then crippled by loneliness when I leave them. I am terrified and I don’t even know of what,
because I have lost e v e r y t h i n g already.
“Dead people can be our heroes because they cant disappoint us later; they only improve over time, as we forget more and more about them.”
I have a t h e o r y that
s e l f l e s s n e s s and b r a v e r y
aren’t all that d i f f e r e n t .
Somewhere inside me is a merciful, forgiving person. Somewhere there is a girl who tries to understand what people are going through, who accepts that people do evil things and that desperation leads them to darker places than they ever imagined. I swear she exists, and she hurts for the repentant boy I see in front of me. But if I saw her, I wouldn’t recognize her.
Today I take the test. I’m scared it’ll tell me I’m not Abnegation; that I have to leave my family. But I’m even more scared that it’ll tell me to stay.
“But that wasn´t the first time I ever saw her. I saw her in the hallways at school, and at my mother’s false funeral, and walking the sidewalks in the Abnegation sector. I saw her, but I didn’t see her; no one saw her the way she truly was until she jumped.
I suppose a fire that burns that bright is not meant to last.”
This girl would never want to be tucked safely in the middle of the pack, never.
"If we’re afraid to be ourselves, then who are we? Where is there left to hide? But, if we could conquer that fear, we just might be strong, powerful, we just might be unstoppable"
Every faction conditions its members to think and act a certain way. And most people do it. For most people, it’s not hard to learn, to find a pattern of thought that works and stay that way. But our minds move in a dozen different directions. We can’t be confined to one way of thinking, and that terrifies our leaders. It means we can’t be controlled. And it means that no matter what they do, we will always cause trouble for them.
The future belongs to those who know where they belong
code by urie